I think having a resolution and trying to make it happen wasn’t easy. And that should be one of the best reason why it is called ‘Resolution’ and having to keep in mind for the entire year. It’s already september and I realized how times simply flew passed even without a wink, and I start to think about how old I am, how much I have overspent over the year, and what had i achieve over the past 9 months.
Despite working FT for 5 months, Freelance for 2 months, and having a great 25 days holiday, other than that, it will generally contributed to all my KPOP life; concerts and showcase.
Honestly speaking, I feel that those money spent should be jolly-well giving to other who really need it more than ‘donating’ to the concerts i went. As I start to think, even without me in the concert hall, the concert still goes on, the idols still get their earnings… but at the other part of the world, there’s people who doesn’t have food to eat… and still having nothing to eat… I feel really upset and bad. $100 can’t bring an idol to anywhere, yet bring a few families some happiness. Thinking of it… i really feel extremely bad.
I have been working full time for about 5 years having fixed income, quite stable though it is not really a huge some of money. But well, it still money spent, all my hard-earn money. I have come to a ‘sense’ where I think it time to get this over, and stop going for so many concerts and showcases. Of cos, this doesn’t mean that I will stop watching, it is not easy to stop everything, but i will try my best not to watch everything i like (I only watched those i’m interested in). Afterall, I don’t think I have any reason… or in the first place, do i have any?
There’s so many thing in life that we will to achieve, and I don’t want this to be part of why the reason I can’t get what I want/learn/achieve. I want to learn extra skills – piano etc, i want to have my korean language improved. I want my business to go smoothly and well. I want alot and many. And, I need times and money for all these. In fact, I’m not going to say bye, but I’m just going to have lesser of all these concert/showcases which can actually give me another holiday! I love sightsee-ing….! :)
I don’t wish to be someone who say something and not doing it eventually. But then again, how sure I can fulfill what I had just said? I also unsure. I only can persuade myself that I should not disappoint myself in something I want to achieve, and it is not too hard either.
back then, when everything is simple… i used to be a follower of kpop/cpop, and have no problem with no-concert-no-showcases experience. As much as, I might went for Wilber Pan’s but it’s all free because I won the tickets or simply buying a album which cost less than $20 to get an autograph. Thing are so much simple in the past. It’s getting more complicated as technologies goes, and when everyone have the power to do everything. I get all my loves from idols even through my small laptop screen or via DVD i bought. I wondering was it the power of money that cost the difference?
sometimes, i love the days when the technologies wasn’t as great as now. when you don’t need a handphone to arrange date with your friend, you communicate with them more. when you don’t need to save all your number in a phone, you remember every single number and dial it with no problem. when you meet up with friends & family, you don’t spend most of your times playing with the phone. Days without all the technologies… was simply great. But then again, it is because of technologies – I can chit chat with my friend when she is oversea ;)
I love the life when it used to be so much simpler.
Not sure if I have jump away from the topic I want to address. Well, in short, I wish I can be more determine and not going for too many concerts/showcase. But I think once/twice a year is consider good and more than enough. Remember those are only WANTS not NEEDS! I can do it, i believe you can too.